Following up last week’s blog…
With one more and several links to others… One written
almost one year ago while camping in the Idaho desert alone with my boys…
Sadly mentioning the death of a friend at 52yrs old in that
blog… My life was also touched by the death of a good friend’s sister at 48yrs
old while I was writing that blog and another close friend at 58yrs old, a brother
fire fighter from my days as a volunteer in Pultneyville, NY, less than a week
later…
Life has been crazy, busy and full of change since writing
that blog last year… So I hadn’t given much thought to the significance of
those events until this past week…
Then I read this… http://www.standupcomedyclinic.com/4779/how-robin-williams-saved-my-life/?mc_cid=2017c9b62a&mc_eid=4c41690a64
by my friend Jerry Corley... I will quote it here...
At first I refused to believe
it. Like a lot of comedians, I had worked with Robin several times. I even
drove him in a limousine every day for a couple of weeks early in my career,
when I was cutting down my road work to try to save my marriage.
I remember Robin said to me, “Save your marriage? F*@k your
marriage. Save your life!”
Most of those who know me… Know I had moved to Idaho to take
a job at the Idaho National Laboratory to try to save my marriage… 12hr
rotating shift work and an hour bus ride to and from the Idaho desert… 14hrs
day or night to sit and watch my life slowly and unhappily ebb away… Yeah, I
was the bad guy… I’m sure she told those of you who know her…
Determined not to go out like that… My divorce from my executioner
was already final when I wrote last year’s blog and I was just a few months
away from walking away from the death sentence of that job…
As irony would have it… She was the one who called to tell
me of the death of our friend Dan, my fellow fire fighter… Sad with the news… I
asked her… “Do you finally understand now??? Do you finally understand I would
have been willing to die to escape the death sentence of that job… That life…
Why did it take three deaths for you to finally get it???”
Never one to accept anything but her own sainthood… She didn’t
like the question because she didn’t like the answer…
Yes… This past year has been full of changes… Some hard…
Some uncomfortable… There are lots of unknowns… But I’m headed to where I’m
supposed to be… I understand the mistakes of the past much better now…
I have no intention of letting the curtain go down on me…
